A friend told me:
we have to do what we NEED to do before we can do what we WANT to do
it's very true and it's mood lifting, knowing that 'i'm doing what i need to do now, what i want is waiting for me after that' really make me feel better.
yea, nothing comes so easily, we must put in effort, endure some hardship before achieving what we want.
no one is born a boss or leader before you put in effort.